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Love + Men = Games?

September 22, 2009

Everyone says when you find the one you'll know but are they sure? I mean whats if theres alot out there and you cant focus on just one? What if the one has already passed you by and you werent satisfy with what you have or what if he's infront of you and you cant realize it? Too make what if's if you ask me.This are questions you should ask yourself or ask around. Here's my deal i know many guys but i think i LOVE someone who will never belong to me, maybe he shouldnt because he made his bed many times and he laid on it (if you know what i mean). I made so many mistakes before and now i have to deal with the outcomings, im so afraid to like someone for fear that i might end up hurting. Everyone has there heartbroken once or maybe many times then why am i so afraid?

Ive never been a relationship person, im more of the reject now and want them later kind of girl. Yes, i reject them then im the one that wants them after, kind of mest up. I dont know what i do it but its a habit or quality of mine. This is all for now...trust me there will be lots more.

Total men in my life or Crushes = 6

So we'll pick back up on that on another page/ Chapter 2

Sienna's Point Of View

Stepping inside the bar/night club she heard the music banging against her ears, some nights the music was over exaggerated loud that it got to the point that no one could talk to each other. Sienna made her way to the bar seeing people dance she smiled as she saw Brian a head...Brian was the guy who took over the bar while she was at home. "Don't worry dude we'll take it from here!" Sienna said walking behind the bar counter and getting shot glasses to pour tequila into since there was an order Brian had from a man in the crowd "What else can I get you sugar?" Sienna asked as she handed the man the couple of shot glasses he had asked for... "Baby let me have two more beers!" He replied as he handed her the cash to pay for his order "Sure thing!" Sienna answered walking to the beer dispenser and poured the foamy dark yellow liquid into two glasses "Here you go and here's your cha...." before Sienna could finish her sentence the man cut her off by telling her to keep the change she nodded and placed the bill inside her front pocket

Brendon's Point Of View

Brendon reached for his new pair of Nike Air Force on the small tour bus closet. In deed he was tired of that small room of his and the fact that he was always on the road, he loved his job but sometimes wished there was something more to life. If he was ever going to find true love and the girl that will make his heart skip a beat, Brendon thought as he put on his shoes "Brendon!!!" he heard Ryan shout from the bus living room "Okay, Okay I'm done" Brendon replied hitting Ryan on the shoulder "Dude...this is going to be awesome. We're back in our hometown and playing in one of the biggest Casinos there is" Ryan exclaimed stepping out to the big inconspicuous silver bus

Ryan's Point Of View

Looking around to see if there was a mob of girls ready to attack, letting a sigh of relief he stretched his arms "Whoa hoo, no crazy fans tonight!!!" Brendon said to Jon and Spencer that happened to be eating some sort of candy accompanied with red bulls "You guys really know how to get pumped up!" Ryan exclaimed laughing "Boys, the stage is being cleared up and the rest of the band is setting up so you guys have ten to fifteen minutes to relax or do what you want until then" Zach said opening the back door of the casino

Carly's Point Of View

"Ms. Love and Ms. Swanson, Please join me in my office!" Mr. Andrews said to Carly and watched her nod "Sienna, Mr. Manager is calling us to his office. What did you do this time?" she said giving Sienna a nudge on the shoulder "There's no time to sit" The man said as soon as they entered the room "I know you ladies were former dancers and the band that is performing tonight is three dancers short" Mr. Andrews said walking up to the door "The woman at the end of the hall will give you the wardrobe, Riley will be waiting for you ladies" He said smiling and pointing to the hall

Sienna's Point Of View

Sienna smiled as she nodded "Wow Panic at the disco!" She said as her blue eyes widen "I know its hard to believe but Mr. Manager wouldn't lie to us or would he?" Carly replied laughing slightly "There's Riley with the wardrobe woman!" Carly added and waived

Riley's Point of view

Riley waived back when she saw Carly and Sienna heading her way "Hey guys I bet you already heard the fantastic news!" Riley said jumping up and down "Of course Rye..." Sienna replied smiling widely "What song do you think we're going to be performing...I mean dancing?" Riley asked looking at Sienna "My gut tells me "But is better if you do" and my gut never lies" Sienna answered chuckling "Sienna probably that gut of yours is hungry!" Carly exclaimed laughing "Pshh...whatever Ly" Sienna replied and busted out laughing "Ladies hurry!" The woman shouted as she entered the dressing room "I'm guessing your all the same size?" The woman said loudly

Sienna's Point Of View

Sienna entered the dressing room and saw lingerie on a moveable rack "Are those the out fits we're going to be using for the show scene?" She asked the woman smiling "Yes they are...aren't they glamorous? Trust me ladies the boys will be drooling, okay miss you will be wearing black and purple!" The woman replied handing Sienna the lingerie "Thank you but I believe I never caught your name?" She said looking at piece of clothing the woman had just given her "My name is Sarah and I know your Sienna" Sarah replied and smiled walking over to the make up counter "Girls feel free to apply the make up how ever you want" Sarah said and Sienna nodded walking behind a changing cubicle

Ryan's Point Of View

"Dude did you hear that some strippers from the Casino are filling in for 3 of the dancers?" Ryan said to Brendon while he applied eyeliner to his face "Ryan do you actually think strippers would be dancing to our music... I think they're are some sort of dancers" Brendon replied looking himself on the mirror and trying to hold down a cow lick "Brendon your so right. Its good meeting new dancers!" Ryan said laughing and taking a gulp of water "Lets go backstage i bet they're waiting for us" Brendon said getting his jacket

Sienna's Point Of View

Sienna looked at herself on the mirror checking out the outfit she was suppose to use. They were getting paid what they usually made in 2 hours in just five minutes. It was worth the half naked look she had on. "Check us out" She heard Carly and Riley say behind her. Turning around she saw Carly wearing black and hot pink lingerie and Riley had black and red on "Which band member do you think likes purple?" Sienna asked jokingly "If I had to guess I would say Ryan or Jon" Carly answered snickering

Carly's point of view

"Riley you look awesome and Sienna you look hot" Carly said walking over to hog the mirror "Thank you Ly, trust me when I say you look fabulous!" Sienna replied to Carly "I think you may need some eyeliner though! I'm so glad I got my hair retouched yesterday!" Sienna exclaimed fixing her long blond hair

Sienna's Point of View

"My hair is all natural so it can't never let me down" Carly said as she traced her eyes with black and silver eyeliner "Ladies report quickly backstage. You will learn your steps and routine there" Sarah said and waved goodbye "Break a leg" she shouted as they stepped out the room "Its good that we're great dancers and we can learn a routine quick" Riley said clapping her hands "Yes I know" Carly answered "Welcome to the act!" A man said and placed Sienna, Carly and Riley on their dancing spot
After learning the routine Sienna walked over to the choreographer and taped his back gently "What song will be dancing too?" Sienna asked razing a brow "But its better if you do" The man answered and then he clapped his hands together "I knew it...Carly, Riley... I should of bet on the song! I'm ready to give my 100% to Panic at the disco" Sienna said dancing a little

Brendon's Point of view

"Okay guys you will be on in 5 minutes. Please get your instruments and stand on stage!" Brendon heard the backstage person say to the band and nodded "Ryan, the man said you will have to dance with the girl who is using purple. Heads up she's a blond and we both know how much you love blonds!" Brendon said punching Ryan on the shoulder and laughed

Sienna's Point of view

"Carly oh my god we're about to go on! I feel really nervous, I..I can hardly breath but I need to focus" Sienna said to Carly and suddenly felt a soft tap on her face "Enna relax and take a breath, I'm going to be next to Brendon and you don't see me freaking out about it!" Carly said walking on stage as Sienna followed "Break a leg everyone not literally!" Sienna said and saw Panic at the disco walk on stage she smiled at Brendon, Ryan and Jon not to Spencer since she couldn't see him on the back. "Hi, Im going to be dancing with you!" Ryan said as he snickered "Awesome...please don't make me look bad!" Sienna replied laughing slightly and saw Ryan laugh
Soon after Panic at the disco began to play...

To be Continued...

So we'll pick back up on that on another page- Chapter 1

Prologue

Sienna is Twenty years old you can say she's an average young woman, she was born and raise in Las Vegas, yes Sin City, for most but not for her. Sienna is trying to become a model for Hot Topic and such. She currently works as a bartender in a big deal of a club on the Strip with her three favorite people in the world Carly, Riley and Veronica. They met at the training center of The Mirage and became good friends since then, they moved in together and now can't do anything without each other. Secrets are known and kept among each other, they know what haunts them and also know what they have to Shhh about. For example Carly and Sienna are with men that they don't love, Riley has a bad vacodin addiction and Veronica has affairs with married men.

Sienna's Point Of View

Sienna sat on the bed as she slid on her 5 inch stilettos and slowly let out a sigh as she stood up. She wondered when was her life going to change have a 180 degree turn around while she looked at herself in a full size mirror inspecting her out fit for the night carefully, After all she was going to be working all night and no one wants to be seen as the girl who doesn't have a sense of style. "Sienna!!!" she heard Carly shout...walking out her room she saw her beautiful brunette friend struggling to zip her own corset. "Now Ly...I know you don't think you can do that by yourself?" Sienna exclaimed slightly laughing "I know I cant...That's why I called you over Enna, Riley is in the rest room fixing her make up and I don't want to distract her!" Carly replied shaking her head.

Sienna nodded in agreement "Of course I totally agree with that" she added zipping up Carly's corset and then tapping her lightly on the back to let her know the job was done. "I'm ready and you seem ready...I think we should be heading out to work" Sienna exclaimed walking over to the kitchen to get a glass of water

Carly's Point Of View

"Yes we should...I think the rest of the girls are ready also" Carly said putting on her diamond earrings since Carly was a classy gal and she only liked and preferred everything to be Designer or Label "Uhum...they don't take long to get ready. They're no us!!!" Sienna shouted from across the room and laughed "I know what you mean" Carly replied as she got her keys from the counter that sat between the kitchen and living room

Riley's Point Of View

Riley added the final touches to her outfit for tonight when she heard from the other room Sienna and Carly's conversation. Scoffing loudly she opened the bed room door and got her handbag "Guys I'm ready, I think Veronica is waiting for us downstairs." she shouted while opening the front door wide open

Sienna's Point Of View

"That's is true..." Sienna added walking out the large apartment hearing her heels click as she walked down the stairs and began to see her red head friend. It was kind of ironic because Sienna was bleach blond, Carly was a brunette, Veronica was a redhead and Riley had dark black hair. "Hey Veronica!!!" Sienna shouted and tapped her right shoulder "Hey, seriously girls you need to learn how to get ready and sexed up quickly!" Veronica exclaimed slightly laughing

Veronica's Point Of View

Veronica watched as Carly and Riley joined Sienna and herself in the buildings lobby "Did you guys forget about Panic at the Disco performance tonight?" Sienna asked as they walked out the building into Carly's car "Your so right that almost slipped my mind." Carly replied starting on the engine of her Mercedes

Carly's Point Of View

"Not mine...you know how much I Love those guys and trust me Jake isn't jealous at all. Well maybe a little but I don't talk to him about those kind of things... he would go ballistic" Sienna replied faking a laugh "Sienna you know Jake and he can be mean when he wants too" Carly said cocking her head slightly to look at the beautiful blond seating beside her "Ly, please lets not talk about it tonight. Samuel isn't sugar and spice either" Sienna said in an aggravated tone "Honey you know that's not what I meant. Please keep entertaining us with Panic at the disco chatter" she said smiling over at Sienna and watched her nod "All I'm saying is that I'm going to try to talk to Brendon tonight" Sienna answered with a cocky smile "I hope so Enna and don't forget to introduce the little people by that I mean us" Carly said smiling and saw the girls that were on the back seat nod in agreement

To be Continued...

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Pretty.Odd Love ♥Chapter 3♥

Serena Pov

I was looking like crazy for a dress, I want to impress Brendon so badlyâ�¦I hope this time he notices me

Blair Pov

So Jenny tell me why you left?

â�œWell Bâ�¦I cant tell you at least not yet.â�

Well what ever happened I hope its not anything bad

Jenny Pov

I couldnâ�™t tell B that I had slept with S brother Eric and that I was so embarrassed to face him at schoolâ�¦

â�œhey J come here tell me what you think of this dress?â�

Sure S

Serena Pov

I found the perfect dress, it was black and pretty

â�œhey S, show me what you foundâ�

Ok tell what you think and be honest J

Ashley Pov

I was so exited to meet Panic especially for Spencer, I loved the guy he is the best drummer ever

The last time I heard he was single and I hope he likes me. I know for a fact that his last girlfriend was brunette, I am a cute brunette and I hope he digs me

Kat Pov

It was already like 6pm and the show starts at 8pm

S we have to go back to the motel room, Izzie is waiting for us

â�œyour totally right, I was so exited about meeting Panic that I forgot about herâ�¦Come on girls lets go!â�

Blair Pov

We got to the hotel and we all ran into the room. Everyone was going nuts, there was a smell of mix perfumes in the air

I stumble against J and K

K was going crazy she couldnâ�™t wait to meet Criss Angel

Serena Pov

I was ready to go and have fun. I was wearing a black dress with some red pumps. I felt great and I knew that something incredible was going to happen tonight!

Are you girls ready?

â�œyea S, I love your dress!â�

I totally love yours B

Jenny Pov

I was glad that I was back with S & B, there the best friends ever..

I totally loved them because there 17 and am 16 and they respect that. Ryan those too, I know he might be a couple years olderâ�¦okay, a lot but I love him

Ryan Pov

Hey Brendon, guess what?

â�œWhat Ry?â�

Jenny just called and said that she has some friends from New York she wants you to meet!

Brendon Pov

Cant wait Ry

â�œshe also said that she was coming over after the Criss Angel performanceâ�

What if we suprice them at the show, you know Criss Angel gave us free tickets

â�œthatâ�™s true lets go, just let me go get my scarfâ�

Ok but hurry

Serena Pov

When we arrive to The Luxor there was hundreds of people all over specially in the casino

We enter into the big auditorium and we sat on some empty seats

Ryan Pov

When we got to the casino we went inside I spoted J with her friends.. I got closer to her and cover her eyes with my hands

Guess who Babe?

Serena Pov

I was waiting for the show to start and talking to B, when I suddenly felt hands cover my eyes

I took the hands off my eyes and turned around

Excuse me do I know you?

â�œam so sorry I thought you were Jenny, since both of you are blondeâ�

Omg Ryan Ross, I thought you looked familiar, im Serena and your blonde is over there

â�œha. Thanksâ�

Brendon Pov

I saw Ry talking to a beautiful blonde, after he had finished talking to her I rush over to her..

hey am Brendon

â�œHey I know who you are, love your musicâ�

Thanks

I saw her stand up and she was tall and gorgeous I was stuned

â�œSo Brendon what are you guys doing here?â�

Well we came and see Criss his one of my close friends!

â�œReally Kat would love to meet him, do you think you can introduce themâ�

Sure, after the show..

Blair Pov

I saw S with Brendon, I wasnâ�™t going to Panic I donâ�™t want to seem like a psycho fan so I just played it cool

I looked to the entrance and sawâ�¦..

To be continued and Comment

Pretty.Odd Love ♥Chapter 2♥

Serenaâ�™s pov

When we arrived to Vegas there was tons of people all over, I spotted an empty parking

â�œBlair look thereâ�™s one there!â�

I saw B speeding to get the parkingâ�¦

â�œNice one B!, Ash could you be a doll and put some quarters on the meter?â�

Ashleeâ�™s Pov

I walked over to the meter and deposit two dollars of quarters

â�œHey S we have enough time to go shopping before the show startsâ�

Katâ�™s Pov

Yes lets go S & B, you know I want to go buy a watermelon lip-gloss so when I kiss Criss Angel heâ�™ll find it delicious

Blairâ�™s Pov

You know I can never say no to shopping, so what are we waiting for lets go!

As we walked to the mall I spotted a familiar face.

Serena isnâ�™t that Mandy?

Serenaâ�™s Pov

Where?

â�œright there in front of us!â�

I taped this girl on the back when she turned around it was Mandy, I didnâ�™t recognize her since she dyed her hair blonde

Mandyâ�™s Pov

I felt a tap on my back. When I turned around it was Serena.

Serena what are you doing here?

â�œWell we came to see Criss Angelâ�¦omg M , I fucken missed youâ�

Serenaâ�™s pov

I hugged Mandy and then we started walking and I told her all the gossip that she didnâ�™t know about..

So Mandy do you want to go shopping with us?

â�œSure I would love too S, I so forgot to tell you!â�

What?

â�œwell that am dating Ryan Ross!!!â�

No fucken way M, congratsâ�¦you so have to introduce us to the band

â�œof course, how about later tonight?â�

thatâ�™s a plan, come on you have to help me find the perfect dress

Blairâ�™s Pov

Serena how about this dress? We walked over to a window..

â�œThatâ�™s the perfect oneâ�¦ I have to buy itâ�

Come on lets go get it!

â�œB guess what?â�

What S?

â�œMandy is taking us to meet Panic at the disco!!!â�

Mandyâ�™s pov

Thatâ�™s true Blair, so buy a cute outfit because I want you to meet this guy named Sam!

â�œreally, thank you Mâ�¦.I cant believe we found you hereâ�¦.but you still have to tell me why you left the upper east side?â�

To be continued!

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Pretty.Odd Loveâ™¥Chapter 1â™¥

Serena Pov

It was Friday afternoon and we were finishing up to head to Vegas , I was excited to go because I had been going to school all year around. â�œ Kat tell me your takeing some sexy clothes for Criss Angel?â�

I look at Kat with a smile..

Kat Pov

â�œSerena you know I am, you know Criss Angel only looks at the girls who are dress like sluts and am willing to look like a whore for himâ� I grab a dress from my suitcase and show it to Serena

Serena Pov

Wow, thatâ�™s nice but please tell me your using shorts under? I laugh and walk to my dresser and grab my phone, I look through my contacts and dial Blairâ�™s number. â�œS, who are you calling?â� Iâ�™m calling Blir she was supposed to be here an hour ago!

Phone Con:

â�œ hello?â�

Where are you at B?, we have been waiting for you and Iz!

â�œwell am on my way and Iz said she was going to meet us at Vegasâ�

Ok just hurry we donâ�™t want to be late and you know Kat would hate it if we miss Criss Angel performed!

â�œ I know ill be thereâ�

Blair Pov

I hung up my phone and got in my car and headed to Ashleyâ�™s house, I wanted to get away from the drama that people were bringingâ�¦I also had a feeling that I was suppose to go to Vegas this weekend for a reason..

I got to Ashleyâ�™s house and saw she wasnâ�™t it front like she promise.. I swear that girl would be late to her own funeral

I started honking and saw her running down the stair she almost tripped

Are you okay? â�œyesâ�¦.â� I saw her put her luggage in the trunk

So Ash brought everything you need? â�œ yea I think so but I have a feeling I forgot somethingâ� just ignore it, all your worries will be over when we arrive to Sin city! I give Ash a smile

Serena Pov

I was getting a glass of water when I heard a honk in front of my house. Kat!!, get everything B is hereâ�¦. â�œok S but help me its all heavy!â�

I walk to my room and saw Kat struggling with the luggageâ�™sâ�¦K donâ�™t hurt yourself! â�œI just want to go already. I cant wait to see Criss Angel

and I hope he picks me to come up to stage with him..â�

I bet he will, why wouldnâ�™t he your gorgeous! â�œthank you Sâ� Your welcome, come on before Blair leaves without usâ�¦

We walk out of the house and headed to Blair's Tahoe, we loaded all of our luggageâ�™s onto the trunk, it was already pretty full but we managed to squeezed ours in there

Ok Ly lets goâ�¦

â�œS before we go lets hope all our craziest, wildest dreams come true!â� ok Ash, I hope Kat meets Criss Angel and we meet nice guys!

Blair starts the car and turns up the radio

Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as lovers can, you know
Yeah, we're feeling so good
Pickinâ�™ up things we shouldnâ�™t read
Looks like the end of history as we know
Itâ�™s just the end of the world
Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as love, you could, you can

â�œOmg girls that the new song by Panic At The Disco!â�

how do you know Kat?

â�œwell because I saw the video this morningâ�

Its awesome, wouldnâ�™t it be wild if we met them?

To be continuedâ�¦.comment and buzz

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